:: Gozoto Blog ::

:: Saturday, June 05, 2004 ::

So I had this "experience" and it was like it completed a lot of the thoughts I've been having and man did it feel good to have some kind of resolution. It took me a day or 2 to organize it all but I think i finally know what I believe and I think I know what its all about.

Microtouch commercial: "what a great way for women to keep the men in their lives perfectly groomed"

so now that I feel better about the world its time to get a guitar and learn to play it then i can write some good music and do some groupies...yay

my sister: "you need to get a guitar so you can make music and play it for me now instead of some college slut girl in college cause you are definitely gonna play guitar by college."

now for some bus station talk. Thats right...me work at greyhound and at the bus station...we get some creepy characters. A few days ago we got these kiddos with kiddos who got kicked off their bus and then the cops were called and the one was cuffed and it was awesome cause the one guy threw his own shit across the parking lot...it was neato.

:: Ellioto Gozoto 12:04 PM [+] ::
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Hey...I haven't written in a while just cause I haven't felt like it. Been kinda down with just thinking too much about everything. Its kind of odd that I have been feeling down cause the past few weeks have included some really really great experiences. Duraluxe shows out the wazooo...hanging with good people...my sister(anna)'s wedding which was beautiful...and I have had some good bonding time with my other older sister Emily. I just have been having a lot of really weird dreams and it has sort of freaked me out. like ones with people I love dieing in plane crashes and others getting arrested by the cops and this one night I had a dream where I myself got arrested and whenever I was caught after a bit of a chase...then I woke up in cold sweat and when i went back to sleep it happened again only with a different scenerio. This happened like six times. I also keep having these like day dreams that are equally disturbing. I will be sitting listening to music and my mind will just wander to these gruesome images...gah and I dont even know where it is coming from. I think i just need to stay away from reality...can anyone get me some heroin?...haha...so anyways...I am sorta worried about Emily, Jamie, and Sarah because of my dreams and I tried to call jamie to warn her(from my dream sounds weird but u know...freakin me out)...I really have just been trying my hardest to keep plane crashed out of my mind and just visualizing safe landings and such.

Started my new job at the bus station. Its supercool...perhaps jawsome

Now I'm gonna list all the people who have died or been arrested or met some other fate in my dreams so u can watch urself.

Jamie
Emily (all of them...there are so many)
Emilie
John (my cousin)
Sarah
Stephen
Heidi (the carcrash I saw already happened though and she lived though)
Betsy
Ben
my grandparents (dad's side...but they have already passed)
myself
my other sisters (the non-emily ones)

Im sure there are more so just everyone be careful out there...im so friggin afraid of death.

this shit is pretty creepy

and now the song im gonna throw in is really beautiful and is in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind cause that movie is beautiful too...and I saw it with Luther and Whitney not long ago and that was my third time seeing it...holy crap is it wonderful. goddamn is it excellent holy crap.

Beck - Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime

Change your heart, look around you
Change your heart, it will astound you
I need your loving like the sunshine
And everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Change your heart, look around you
Change your heart, it will astound you
I need your loving like the sunshine
And everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Everybody's gotta learn sometime

:: Ellioto Gozoto 10:35 AM [+] ::
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